2008 : old age

Long experience of torture. Beatings, I tried to hide, to run, when there is no energy to move -- and being buried, and ... digged out again.

It's all ahead. How soon?

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Only when you are mortal, you need other people. At least, one. Nightmares?

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fight

lost fights...
I don't see dreams anymore. Maybe I am old now.

The fights I had in my dreams, when I throw the punch, but it's so weak. As if somebody did hit my muscles before, I remember it since my boxing days, and I have no power anymore. Not even to lift my hands. I know it, but you have to fight, you throw your fist knowing that you lost.

I thought that is about the impotence.

list

... getting lost.